Letters to the Editor [Archives:2000/36/Letters to the Editor]

Love
You were not here! You were not here for a long time, not even a sign of you was there.
You were forgotten and lost as if deliberately torn away from my life.
Maybe I was responsible for losing or being apart.
But you were life itself.
Self-sacrifice, comradeship, friendship and of course love coming from the depth of the heart…..Love……In spite of everything, even at the time of loss, difficult to swallow, or despite jealousy.
I have lost you when trying to catch the target, shown without thinking any reason with hatred and anger, in a meaningless feeling of
being late without even being aware of it.
There was not any warmth smile of a friend anymore, or being in tear of her, enthusiastic loves or delight tears.
You were lost…..
Your emptiness has been filled by spurious friendship, unsatisfied ambitions, deadly rancors, egoism and very painful loneliness…..!
Furthermore to mention your name and to sigh when you are absent is considered shame.
In a ward like this -in which money is considered the most worthy thing, who steals big considered very respectable and to whom told that “we proud of you” are in fact bloodthirsty criminals-maybe they were right and there was not any place for those good values.
And in a very small place I realized that I have lost you. Maybe that place was not small, maybe it was bigger than the world. But in fact you were so close that if I tried to touch you, I could.
In spite of everything you came back. In spite of injustice, disloyalty and stabbing in the back you were here.
For a long time I could not drop any tear with great sob as I did when I felt you were back.
In fact that sobs showed me that you had not gone anywhere out waiting a call ring beside me……!!!! Ertugrul
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